And That’s 2024

What a fucking year. For games, yes, but also for this dumpster fire of… a world? Just my country? I dunno. I have moments of hopelessness, but overall I’m trying to focus on myself and dive even deeper into my hobbies. As mentioned in my last post, I really wanted/intended to write about the games I played as I played them this year, but that didn’t happen. I played a lot more games than I realized, so I wanted to at least do a sloppy catch-up post to get some of my thoughts down, even if I can’t dive as deep as I’d like into some of them. These are kinda in the order I played them in, -ish, and of course there are some [SPOILERS], even in screenshots. I mostly won’t be discussing games I’m still playing or replaying (Stardew Valley, Lake, EarthBound, etc.), with a couple exceptions (Phasmophobia and Sea of Thieves for PS5). Feel free to just search for games you’re interested in, or strap the fuck in and get ready to read the shit out of this behemoth of a post. I went a little overboard there, sorry. Let’s just get started.

The Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom

And what a game to start with. I’m embarrassed that I’m so far behind with blogging that I’m starting with a game I played a full year and a half ago, but here we are. This is one of those games I wish I had more time to dive deep into. I would spend approximately a dozen or so paragraphs on Purah alone, because I love her and want to smooch her sassy face, but we’ll get back to her soon enough.

There was some discussion about how Tears of the Kingdom was “more of the same,” when it came out, but I have to believe that was the typically loud and wrong gamer segment of social media. I’m actually down for some “more of the same” sequels from games, within a limit. The constant need for innovation and genre-defying revolutionary changes sometimes spoils a perfectly good thing. Again, there is a limit. I’m not saying all sequels should be slightly more polished versions of their predecessors, but there is nothing wrong with refinement and iteration. Having said all that, I don’t think that’s what’s happening in Tears of the Kingdom. At first glance, sure, the core experience seems the same. Same graphics and art style, music, characters, even the same primary map/world.

But as Zelda creator Shigeru Miyamoto has said, at the center of the Zelda experience is exploration. For most of the mainline games, the Zelda team have sought to stoke a sense of childhood wonder and curiosity in the player. A fear of dark caves and strange creatures, the thrill of discovering something completely new and unexpected. Trying to climb something you clearly shouldn’t be and eating shit. Breath of the Wild did this better than any other Zelda game I’ve played, and Tears of the Kingdom expands on it beautifully. What’s better than having an expansive world with tons of hidden places to explore? Well, how about a bunch of magical floating islands that are a blast to both traverse and also dive off of? How about a massive darker-than-dark underworld that is legitimately scary to explore and has cool skeleton horses you can ride around on? And THEN, the real kicker, what if you could engage that childlike part of your imagination and make all kinds of machines and vehicles using whatever you found around the world? Five-year-old me, who once made a “tank” out of an overturned wheelbarrow, two old tires, and a segment of aluminum rain gutter, is tickled. If Nintendo’s goal was to create a childhood fantasy simulator, mission accomplished.

I’ve written about my love of Breath of the Wild before, and much of what I loved in that game has returned here. The combat is simple but satisfying, the world is filled with interesting encounters and charming characters, and I still have a crush on Princess Zelda, who despite largely being MIA in this story is somehow even more of a badass. The fight with Ganondorf, where you beat his first phase and then his life bar just extends beyond the screen, was amazing. Like Breath of the Wild, Tears of the Kingdom’s story is fairly simple but told in fragments in whatever order you unlock them in. And I like the story well enough, but it’s the moments that make up the story that matter more to me. Spoilers, of course, but the whole broken Master Sword storyline, and having to recover it after all this time? You already got me hooked – but it’s how you recover it and the storyline behind it that made it so memorable for me. There are a few ways to get the sword, and though I wish I’d taken the route with the Dragon of Light because of story reasons, my path to the sword was still thrilling. Avoiding too many main quests, I found myself in a spooky, bespoiled Korok Forest, with the goal of cleansing the poor, sickly Great Deku Tree. I should note that I wasn’t particularly well-equipped to battle the shadow creatures at this point, and even the damned groping shadow hands were scary to me. So as I scraped along, progressing in my goal of helping the Deku Tree and sure I’d be rewarded with something incredible for doing so, I dropped down beneath the tree and found myself face-to-ugly-face with Phantom Ganon. “I’m dead,” I thought. But there was no way to escape, so I pulled out my best sword and shield, gave a hearty “HYAAAT” and leapt straight toward my inevitable death. Except I didn’t die. Because I am the best and most skilled gamer that has ever existed. Okay, that’s definitely not true, but it sure felt like it after many broken weapons, panicked dodge rolls, and half-skilled strikes, when I beat Phantom Ganon and made those bold and untrue claims to my cat.

Claiming the sword a second time, kind of, after progressing the story and finding out that Princess Zelda willingly transformed into a dragon to restore the sword for a future Link to recover was even more epic, and I legit got misty-eyed more than a few times later in the game with story beats like that. It’s what I mean when I say the moments are what made it for me. The story in the game is good. But I’ll forget most of it at some point. I won’t forget diving off the back of my immortal love, who sacrificed herself to become a dragon, unsheathing the Master Sword, and landing on a similarly transformed dragon Ganondorf (Demon Dragon) to slash away at the corrupted pods on his back.

I will also never forget about Purah. In this game, Purah is a baddie. Not as in a video game enemy or villain. As in a Grade A, 10/10, blue ribbon baddie. A smokeshow. Or, as the internet has come to call her: Science Mommy. From the flirty, sassy attitude, to the bookish but stylish look, Purah can master my sword any day. Is that too crude? I don’t even care. I would risk it all for Purah. Zelda who? What, she disappeared and no one can pin down her location? Oh noooo, guess I’ll just hang out with my new bestie and bae, Purah. I kid, I kid, Zelda for life and all that. But, man. Purah can get it. And by “it” I mean my penis. Okay, okay, I’m done. Sorry. I’ll pine over her more in a future Video Game Crushes post, I’m sure.

Coffee Talk Episode 2: Hibiscus & Butterfly

I spend a lot of my time doing stressful things in video games. The battle with Phantom Ganon mentioned above, for example. Phasmophobia, a game that made me stink-sweat when I first played it, is currently still in the rotation. But sometimes I just want to chill out and enjoy a nice cup of virtual coffee. Well, enjoy serving it to an eclectic group of colorful characters in a sleepy cafe in rainy Seattle, anyway. I really liked the original Coffee Talk, so I was excited that a sequel was released in such (relatively) short order. Hibiscus & Butterfly offered more of the same low-stakes, high-charm vibes that the first game did, which is a true balm in these trying times. It once again very much had me constantly craving coffee, tea, and hot chocolate, too. It’s always an odd point in a game’s favor when it gets me jonesing for something in real life. I was once again slightly disappointed that I didn’t have as much of a part to play in the character’s stories, especially with regards to romance (let me smooch these cuties, damn it), but I can’t say I was surprised, given that the first game was the same. Regardless, it was another very welcome, very adorable cozy game.

Final Fantasy XVI

Final Fantasy XVI is not, however, a very cozy game. It’s dark, occasionally very sad, and features bombastic battles between massive beings. So, yeah, not cozy, but still fun. I had a great time with FF XVI, but my opinions about it as a game/RPG and my opinions about it as a Final Fantasy game are very different. As an action RPG, I loved it. Incredible graphics, sound, and music, huge dramatic set pieces, stunning boss battles, and some touching character moments. But it truly does not feel like a Final Fantasy game to me. This is just my opinion, based on my own experience with the series, and I’m not saying that this disqualifies it as a good game, so put down the Tonberry knives.

While I played the original Final Fantasy for the NES when I was a kid, I didn’t really get into the games until Final Fantasy III (VI) on the SNES. I loved that game, and with each subsequent release in the series, I couldn’t help but compare them to it. Final Fantasy VII-IX didn’t ruffle my feathers too much, but when I saw the early screenshots and promos for Final Fantasy X, I was like “this does not look like Final Fantasy…” It was so colorful, the characters looked so… un-fantasy-like? There was a soccer-like game in it? It didn’t feel right to me. And then I played it. And loved it. And it did end up feeling like a real Final Fantasy game. I had similar thoughts about XII, which seemed like a wannabe-MMO, and XIII, which looked more like a stylish action game than a classic JRPG. And let’s not forget Final Fantasy XV. You’re a group of dudes going on a road trip? What? How is that remotely Final Fantasy? But, I have to admit, in every one of those examples, I ate my words. Sure, they strayed from the roots of the series in some elements, but after playing each of them for some time, some mystical combination of ingredients  must have clicked for me, because I ended up feeling like they were all in their own unique way, very Final Fantasy.

I never reached that point in Final Fantasy XVI. It had its moments, sure, but for the first time it felt as if the creators were looking to other pieces of media or art for inspiration rather than at their own legacy. I was satisfied, in the end, but as I beat it I couldn’t help but sadly think “maybe next time,” meaning maybe Final Fantasy XVII will be a return to the magic formula that makes Final Fantasy games feel like a unique blend of fantasy and tech, of romance and tragedy. That caveat aside, as I said, I did have a great time with it. It is a gorgeous game, with spectacular lighting and particle effects filling the screen during the epic boss fights. I often complain about the lack of summons in recent Final Fantasy games, spoiled by some of the older games that offered up to two dozen or more summons, so the fact that summons are the stars of the show in this game is huge. There, again, aren’t all that many, but they really take center stage and are given dazzling light shows and battle scenes with their special attacks. The Final Fantasy VII remakes have been scratching the nostalgia itch for Final Fantasy games of yore, and I did have a great time playing it, but I hope the next mainline installment is a bit more familiar, personally.

Goodbye Volcano High

Goodbye Volcano High was a charming surprise for me. I was fully hyped for the PlayStation 5, so when they showed this game as part of the PlayStation Future of Gaming event just before launch, I was intrigued. The art style seemed a little middle-school sketchbook to me (not in terms of skill, but the character designs/style, I guess), but the premise of a group of high schooler dinosaurs having to face the end of the world instantly hooked me. The game came out two years late, apparently due to narrative polishing and to avoid crunch, but it sure seems like those were two years well spent. I went into this game feeling intrigued. I came out of it feeling in love. With the characters, the story, the art, the music. I love to be surprised by games like this.

First, let me say I really dug (get it? Because they’re dinosaurs? I know, I know… clever girl, right? Because Jurassic Park? Which is also about dinosaurs? Okay, stop flirting with me and let’s get back to the game) the whole high school band plot. As someone who was bad at an instrument in high school and still somehow sure he’d be famous for playing it, I related to much of the strife and conflict at play, and felt a surge of pride and excitement when these characters overcame them to find their own version of success (not to mention when I nailed the hardest rhythm section to score a trophy). The backdrop of the impending world-ending meteor provided such an interesting point of conflict in many of the relationships. These characters were already dealing with the kind of social and interpersonal struggles of high school life we’re all familiar with, and now the meteor is ratcheting some of those issues way up. These characters know there is a strict time limit on figuring out their shit, and it makes some scenes that much more emotional.

More specifically, I really liked the relationship between Fang and Naomi. I didn’t know if there were romance/dating options in the game, but as soon as I saw Naomi I thought she’s cuuuuuute. And when Fang started receiving mysterious, anonymous texts from what seemed like someone crushing on them, I hoped so hard that it was Naomi. The whole thing with the Sailor Moon (Pretty Heroes) cosplay, and her showing up to the show wearing it to surprise Fang? My heart melted as if it had been hit by a meteor approximately 10-15 km wide. I also loved the D&D scenes, particularly the final, climactic one. It was very funny and charming, but also felt so powerful in terms of where these characters were at in the story and how near the end truly was. I haven’t platinumed this one yet, but I plan to. I’ll gladly play through it again to revisit my prehistoric friends.

Heart of the Woods

I bought Heart of the Woods solely for the pretty cover art. I was browsing Limited Run Games’ site, just looking at some of their recent releases, and the cover art for this game instantly caught my eye. Gorgeous cover art? Visual novel? Only $35 for a physical copy? Bam, straight to the cart. Visual novels are interesting to me because I feel like they’ve grown in popularity in recent years because they’re much easier to develop than other types of games (mostly static art assets, limited or no mechanics or systems to build, no 3D worlds or spaces to design, etc.). For a host of young writers who might otherwise be self-publishing or sharing their work in online spaces, they offer a novel way to reach audiences (and merge their love of writing and games, I imagine). This does mean that you get a range of experiences with the writing in visual novels, and Heart of the Woods is a prime example. There is a lot of good writing here, some interesting character work, and plenty of charm. But it’s also a bit wordy and bloated and might have benefitted from some trimming down. I’m glad these kinds of games exist, though, because even when the presentation isn’t particularly award-winning, I can usually feel the developer’s passion for the material, as I can here. I don’t regret taking a chance on the game with the pretty cover art.

Persona 3 Reload

Phew. This is one of the games I wish I had time to devote a whole post to. Or a book. Or an anthology. I’ve made no attempt to hide my love of the Persona games, and like many fans I was calling for a remake of Persona 3 for years. I played Persona 5, then Persona 4 Golden, then Persona 3 Portable. What struck me about playing them in that order was that I could see the evolution of P-Studio’s style and design. I was shocked that Persona 4 Golden felt so very much like Persona 5. I’m used to RPG series that try to revolutionize or innovate with each new title, so it was weirdly refreshing to see that P-Studio is more about iteration and refinement. The core Persona magic is there in Persona 4 Golden, with slightly less flash and style, and the same can be said of Persona 3. It’s not as flashy and polished as Persona 4 and 5, but the formula is there. So, as I did with the other two games, I loved my time with Persona 3 Portable.

So when they announced that the new Persona 3 was going to not just be a remaster (which also came out, hah) but a full remake in the style and engine of Persona 5? [Huge SPOILER for the sake of a dumb joke] Like the protagonist, I just straight up died. And it turned out to be just what I’d hoped for. Intact was the dark, twisted story, the incredible character moments, my girl Mitsuru. But now the game has the same vibrant style and sheen of Persona 5, with a ton of minor (and not-so-minor) quality of life upgrades, like new activities to do with social links, Shifting (Baton Pass), All-Out Attacks, smoother traversal, and more. I was a little wary of having new voice actors, but I did understand the reasoning (wanting to give younger talent a shot, especially because I imagine there will be spin-offs and other content coming later). I was especially worried about Aigis, because I thought Karen Strassman did such an amazing job in the role (as she has in everything I’ve heard her in). But the new cast really made the characters their own, and I was excited to hear many of the original voice cast (like Strassman, Michelle Ruff, Yuri Lowenthal, and more) in supporting roles throughout the game.

So, yeah, I loved this game. Again. Cried my eyes out at the ending. Again. Romanced Mitsuru. Again. I got the platinum and will almost certainly play again someday. I haven’t yet played the expansion, Episode Aigis, but I might do that very soon. I’m also about to start Metaphor: ReFantazio, which I hear is another P-Studio banger, and I have my fingers crossed so hard they’re fusing into one big, freaky finger that we’ll see a teaser for Persona 6 sometime in 2025. Yes, I know it’s probably still a few years away, but just gimme a lil taste. Just a little crumb of art or a cheeky “Ready for more?” voice line over a black screen with a title and vague release window. I will take it. I love Persona so much.

Marvel’s Spider-Man 2

Speaking of things I love, the Spider-Man games and Tom Holland Spider-Man movies have seismically shifted the needle for me with the quip-slinging web shooter. I read some Spidey comics as a kid, I really liked Spider-Man and Venom: Maximum Carnage for the SNES, and the Tobey Maguire trilogy was my proverbial jam. But the recent games and movies, including the Spider-Verse movies, have just been so damned good, and Marvel’s Spider-Man 2 is no exception. It has the same blockbuster setpieces and AAA shine as the previous games, but it really delivers on the relationships between characters and the depiction of Venom in a way that pleasantly surprised me. 

I got misty-eyed multiple times, and I really liked the quieter character moments, like riding bikes with Harry, doing street art as Hailey, the stuff with Miles and his Uncle, the homecoming side-quest, and more. The Pete and Miles combo worked so much better than I thought it might, with their distinctive combat styles feeling much more intuitive to switch between than I thought they would be. Plus Tony Todd as Venom? A slew of new Spidey suits to unlock and switch between? The Mysterio levels? Wraith? I feel like I’m forgetting more than I’m remembering about this game, which might seem like a dig. What I mean is that it’s filled with tons of fun content, missions, nods, and activities despite not having an aggressively bloated length. And, in the end, swinging around the city as (a) Spider-Man is just really fucking fun.

The Dark Pictures Anthology: The Devil In Me

I played this game as one of my Halloween/spooky season vibe-setters. I’d played all of the Dark Pictures Anthology games, plus Until Dawn and The Quarry, so it really was about time I got to this entry. Somehow I missed the press for this one, though, maybe because I knew I’d play it regardless. So I thought the story for this one was going to be about possession, like an Exorcist type of thing. Nope, hah. It was like Saw mixed with American Horror Story: Hotel. It might have the least likeable cast of the games I’ve played, but I did end up digging the game overall (enough to play through a few times to get the platinum trophy). It retains some of the jank from previous games, but there is something about the combination of realistic graphics and choice-based horror that really clicks with me. It’s probably middle of the pack in terms of my ranking of these games (plus Until Dawn and The Quarry), but I’m on board with them pumping more of these out.

Dredge

I downloaded Dredge to get a PlayStation Stars collectible, but I’d heard good things about it and it was spooky season so I decided to play it a bit beyond the intro to see if it might get its hooks in me. 35 hours and a platinum trophy later… yeah. I’d say it was pretty amazing. It has that cozy combination of simple mechanics and satisfying rewards, so once I started upgrading my ship and traveling beyond the relatively safe starting area, I was in deep. Unlocking new ship parts to access rarer fish, saving a dog (and a stranded researcher), slowly unraveling the mystery of my lack of memory, all while zipping here and there in my own little fishing boat? So good. There is a part of me that wanted a bit more hands-on sim-y type of mechanics, like in Far: Changing Tides, but the simple, easy path was also fulfilling in its own way. I loved this one.

Blair Witch

Blair Witch is such an interesting game. It lacks some of the gloss and polish of AAA games, and at times looks and plays like a game from a generation or two ago, but it certainly has grand ambitions, many of which it delivers on. It’s somehow not at all what I would have expected from a game based on the Blair Witch movie/lore, and also perfectly situated in the mythology. Sometimes I play a game and think “I don’t envy the person reviewing this…” and this was a prime example. Playing it doesn’t necessarily feel good. It doesn’t exactly look good. And it stumbles occasionally in delivering its story. But… it’s still good? Like, definitely worth playing? Particularly for fans of the greater Blair Witch universe, I would guess, but I also think fans of psychological horror will find it pretty interesting, if they can get past the lack of glamor and shine. I found it compelling enough to replay a few time-consuming sections to get the platinum trophy, for what it’s worth.

The Evil Within

The Evil Within is another very interesting horror game, but for very different reasons. A new horror game from Resident Evil director Shinji Mikami? Published by Bethesda? I’d heard mixed opinions when the game came out, but one refrain stuck: If you like Resident Evil, you should play this game. Hey, that’s me! I love Resident Evil! And somehow it took me until 2024 to play this game. But, I can say with no hesitation: They were right. Look, I won’t sit here and tell you this is a perfect game. The stealth sections are straight up trash. Some of the writing and acting is very hammy (though that does add some charm, like a good B horror movie). But it is very Resident Evil. Like, parallel universe Resident Evil 4 (or 4.5?) similar. It very liberally borrows from RE 4, with enemy-rush levels, crossbow snipers in and out of cover, traps, the mansion, chainsaw guys, spiky-masked guys, hidden statues, and much more. But RE4 was directed by Mikami as well, so… I dunno, I just would just have loved to have been a fly on the wall of the Capcom offices when this game came out, hah.

The stealth segments aside, I did enjoy my time with The Evil Within. It was, as promised, a hammy throwback to old-school survival horror. The shooting felt pretty decent, the increasingly horrific and twisted world was fun (well, horror game “fun”) to explore, and I may have developed a slight crush on the monotone asylum nurse. Because of course I did.

Until Dawn (Remastered)

Getting the platinum trophy for a game doesn’t always mean I loved it, but it does often mean I liked a game enough to want to extend my time with it. I realized this because I did, in fact, love the original Until Dawn so much that I got my first platinum trophy for it. I’ve gushed about my love for that version already, so I’ll just say that I think this remaster does a nice job of harnessing the power of the PS5 to make a great looking game even better. Some of the facial expressions look a little weird on occasion, as they do in the original, but man do the environments look stunning. The particle and lighting effects add an additional layer of atmosphere to an already moody and spooky setting. I couldn’t quite tell if the voice parts had been re-recorded until a couple of specific lines sounded very familiar later on, which could be a good or a bad thing. I liked the original performances a lot, so as long as the performers were compensated for their contribution again, I’m cool with the reuse. I intended to get the platinum trophy for this version as well, but I encountered a bug late in the game that temporarily soft-locked it for me, so with a crowded Halloween playlist I had to move on until it was patched. I finished the game just recently, and I’ll go back and get the platinum next Halloween, probably.

Silent Hill: The Short Message

Like many, I was a big fan of P.T., the “playable teaser” for the now-dead Hideo Kojima Silent Hills game. It seemed the franchise might be dead after Kojima’s falling out with Konami and their subsequent bailing on development of many of their premier franchises. With the announcement of a Silent Hill 2 remake and this short experience, however, hope for new, exciting Silent Hill projects was reignited. I won’t say that the ember of hope was snuffed immediately with this demo-length short game, but it was… contained. There is some very cool spooky visual stuff here, and a couple of P.T.-esque scenarios. I did really like the very subtle camera height change (it’s first-person) in a flashback scene, where you’re seeing through the eyes of a younger Anita, for example. A lot of the flashback stuff was disturbing and effective, I thought (the closet… phew), despite some stilted voice acting and writing. The storytelling in this was pretty solid, though they handled the themes of suicide and social media pretty clumsily and were a little too eager for the player to “get it.” Show, not tell, please. I also could have done without the extended chase scene at the end, which was very annoying, but I did like Sakura Head and the cool effects used to bring it to life. This game was free, so I can’t complain too much, but I hope they spend a little more time shaping the narrative elements in the next full Silent Hill game.

Silent Hill 2 (Remake)

My history with the Silent Hill franchise is… spotty. I have to admit, I really didn’t care for the first Silent Hill when it came out on PlayStation. I’d read that it was poised to give my beloved Resident Evil a run for its money, especially with a very scary fog effect, so I ran out and rented it from the small shop around the corner from where I lived at the time. I miss that rental place. They had a bin of big movie posters, the kind they get for promotional use, for only $1. It’s also where I discovered Suikoden II, Tales of Destiny, Silent Hill, and other cool OG PlayStation games. I tried really hard to be responsible and not rack up late fees, but I had like $30 of late fees when I stopped going, ashamed that I couldn’t pay it back right away. Then they closed down and a dry cleaning place opened there. In a place called… Silent Hill.

Just kidding. It was a place called Streamwood. So, no hill. Just a stream and some woods? Anyway, I was pretty disappointed by Silent Hill. I don’t feel this way anymore, but at the time I clearly remember thinking the fog was an overhyped way to cover pop-up and load times. After all, many of my early N64 and PlayStation games had that fog, but because of memory limitations, not “atmosphere.” Add to that a clunky combat system and slow pace, and I kinda thought it was a dud. I should go back and try it again, because I’m sure I was being unfair to it. When Silent Hill 2 came out, I finally had a job and a shiny new PS2 I was desperate to buy games for, so I decided to give the sequel a shot. And I was so glad I did. It was a very tense, stressful experience, in a way that was different from what I was used to with the Resident Evil games, but I walked away from the ending buzzing. My first encounter with Pyramid Head was so memorable. I’d seen him in flashes earlier in the game, and had been trying my hardest to save ammo. When I entered a room with him for the first time, I panicked and began unloading, thinking I was supposed to beat him. No. I wasted all my bullets, got a quick and fatal poke in the ribs, and had to reflect on my life. He was terrifying. I also loved the multiple endings, even if I didn’t have the patience to get all of them. My favorite was one that I’d read about but didn’t get. The rumor was that if you look at a knife (given to you by Angela) in your inventory enough, the game reads it as you being suicidal so you then unlock an ending where you kill yourself. That was such a cool, interesting, dark mechanic that I got Angela’s knife tattooed on my arm as part of my video game sleeve.

I was, admittedly, a little worried about this remake, though. I was thrilled it was happening at all, of course, but when Bloober Team was announced as the development studio, I can’t deny I was doubtful. They made Blair Witch (above) and Layers of Fear, and I found both of them to be lacking polish in several ways, despite both having cool, spooky concepts. My fears were unfounded, though. Silent Hill 2 (Remake) might not be the most dazzling game ever, and there are a few odd visual artifacts (the newspaper boxes, for example, are hugely disproportionate), but generally it looks pretty stellar. The fog and atmosphere in particular are very well done. They kept all of the features I loved, like the crackling radio that alerts to enemies, and smoothed out the combat and traversal a ton. Besides Pyramid Head (who is as legendary as ever), the story is the star of the show, and it’s told with reverence and some nice improvements. The Angela dad boss fight? Fuuuuuck. The slow trickle of clues revealing the truth behind James’ and Mary’s experience? Daaaaaamn. So good. So, yeah. Like the original, I loved the new and improved Silent Hill 2.

God of War Ragnarök: Valhalla

This entry is very special to me. God of War Ragnarök: Valhalla is my very first game credit. I’d worked on other games to lesser extents, but this was the first game I did the copywriting for on my own. I got briefed on it months before release, got to write the marketing and social beats for it, and even had my name in the credits. There was no physical copy so I didn’t get to write the box copy (that would come later, with Horizon Zero Dawn Remastered!), but seeing my name in the credits, especially after going through and beating it, was a huge high.

That aside, the game itself was, as expected, incredible. When I was briefed about it, someone from the dev team said it had elements of Hades and other rogue-lites, which made me wonder how much I’d like it. I have to be very into a game to deal with bashing my head over the same levels again and again, but as it turns out, I am indeed very into God of War. The combat in the new games is so good and masterfully designed that I never feel like a death is unfair. If I die, I usually know exactly why and can make a plan to fix the problem when I try again. This lends itself well to a rogue-lite formula, because my frustration is almost always with me, not the game. So, as with the base game, I loved the combat in Valhalla, and I thought they did some really fun, interesting things with Kratos reflecting on his past and his identity. So proud to have my name attached to this game, even if I wasn’t involved in the actual design/development.

Helldivers II

As a perk of my job, I get game codes for all of our first-party games. Some I don’t necessarily need, because I buy physical copies regardless, as was the case with God of War Ragnarök, Horizon Zero Dawn Remastered, Until Dawn, and others. But Helldivers 2 was one of those games that wasn’t on my radar, so when I got the code I thought hmm, I guess I’ll check it out later, if I have time. But then I was seeing TikToks of it all over my FYP, my friends were getting hooked, the reviews were great… I had to (hell) dive in and check it out.

And I had an absolute blast with it. Shit can go south so quickly in it, but the stakes never really felt that high. My friend group didn’t take it too seriously and were just there to blow shit up and have a good time, and it helped with some of the more chaotic moments. Whether we were being swallowed by a wave of Terminids or found ourselves fatally surrounded by relentless Automatons, we would say “That’s Helldiving, babyyyyy” and prep for the next round of chaos. Things were especially hectic early on, when a couple of us were less than experienced and being carried by a high-level friend, but eventually we got great at communicating and coordinating. It was such a unique thrill to plan a route on the map, drop in, have to change plans because everything is going sideways, lose some ground, gain it back with a fiery fury and many bombastic Stratagems, and make a narrow escape on the shuttle as enemies descended around us. What a ride.

Sea of Thieves

I played Sea of Thieves on my Xbox One when it came out, but I returned to it when it released on PS5 this year for a few reasons. First, holy shit an Xbox game on PlayStation!? I suppose it’s not as crazy as it sounds, as Microsoft has published games on other platforms, like the Nintendo DS, before. And PlayStation has released MLB the Show on Xbox and Switch for a few years now, but something felt different about this one. So it was an odd thrill to boot this up, similar in some small way to when I hit play on Sonic Adventure for the GameCube after Sega quit the hardware game.

Second? Trophies, babyyyyyy. And third, I often find myself missing the beautiful water effects and (sometimes) tranquil seafaring in Sea of Thieves. I previously stopped playing because I’m not a fan of being trolled and harassed while I’m trying to do my own thing. Rare said at launch that they had plans of bringing private servers to the game, then they stopped mentioning it, then they gave them to just influencers, then, finally, after years, they did end up introducing them. People can say what they will about it “being a pirate game so how can people be mad when people act like pirates lololol,” but pirates respected each other and had a shared enemy of states and wealthy merchant companies. They didn’t just attack every ship they saw for the lulz. Regardless, with private servers and shiny trophies to earn, I hopped back in and had some pretty good times with friends. We were all still outraged at the ridiculous monetization, but what are ya gonna do at this point?

Final Fantasy VII Rebirth

Yet another game that deserves its own post. Sigh. A few rambly paragraphs will have to do. I’ve already discussed at some length my origin with the original Final Fantasy VII in my post about Final Fantasy VII Remake, so I’ll just get right to business. And by “business,” I mean my sadness at Jessie Raspberry not being alive in this one. They showed Biggs at the end of Remake, and with the party realizing that Whispers are actively trying to stop them from changing fate, meaning that fate (and the events of the original FF VII) can be changed, I was so hopefully that my flirty little eco-terrorist girly would be back in action in Rebirth. Sadly, aside from some wistful flashbacks, she was not. 0/10, terrible game, do not play.

Okay, okay, I’m being dramatic. I loved this game. Well, before I open the flood gates of adoration, let me say that I do agree that the mini-games were a bit of a drag on the game overall. Now, don’t get me wrong. I love a good mini-game, and there were some excellent ones in Remake. But this is a very big game, and when you actively require some of these mini-games to progress the story, especially later in the game, it really starts to feel like a drag on the pacing. As with many sprawling RPGs, I tend to wander a lot and do side content as I slowly advance the story, but once I exhaust side quests and other stuff I want to then focus on the main story. It’s a little frustrating when I’ve reached that point, committed to finishing, and suddenly the game is like “wait, have you played THIS mini-game? Well, you have to. And you have to win at it to progress. You’re welcome.” Thanks.

That gripe aside, where do I even begin with the good stuff? Some of it carries over from the first game. It’s a beautiful game, as expected, with huge, gorgeous landscapes and setpieces. The music was once again amazing, especially considering how much of it there is. I was many hours in and I caught myself thinking is this… the fifth version of the Chocobo theme I’ve heard? Sixth? Seventh? And that’s just for one single theme! And much of it tugged on the same nostalgic heartstrings that the music in Remake did. Speaking of heartstrings, how about that ending? Like an absolute Buster Sword through the heart. I knew it was coming but, as with Jessie, I hoped things might be different this time. Fuck. Tears flowed freely that night.

But, as with my thoughts on Tears of the Kingdom, my memories of Final Fantasy Rebirth come down to the moments. Riding electric scooters with my friends at the beach (as dumb as that sounds… and looks, kinda). Playing all the mini-games and taking in the amusement park vibes of the Gold Saucer (the Haunted Hotel was my fave). Fixing Chocobo Stops and petting each baby Chocobo as I did. Flying Blue Chocobos! Playing piano for Joe Biden. Cait Sith’s climactic fake-out (again, tears flowed). Elena’s cutie patootie self. The tension of the parade marching sequence (rocked it). Acting in the musical with your team. Visiting your hometown and reminiscing with Aerith and Tifa. The flashback to a young Cloud deploying with the legendary Sephiroth. The summons, particularly the whole side quest sequence with Gilgamesh. The cruise with the Queen’s Blood tournament. Red XIII walking around as a soldier. Red XIII climbing a ladder. Red XIII riding a Chocobo. Red XIII’s voice change!? You know how when something funny happens in a video game, you kind of blow air out of your nose as a “laugh”? Like a slightly audible version of “heh.” Red XIII’s voice change made me legitimately and helplessly guffaw. I did not see it coming. And I loved it.

I should devote these last paragraphs to the Skywheel date and romance in general. In the original game, I wasn’t quite as invested as a lot of other games. I chose Aerith for my Gold Saucer date back then because it felt like I was supposed to, but I wasn’t head over heels for her. In Remake, I was admittedly torn between Aerith and Tifa, but ultimately Jessie stole my heart so I didn’t have to worry about picking sides. I knew I’d have the chance to go on a date with one of them on the Skywheel at the Gold Saucer in Rebirth as well, so for most of the game up to that point I was thinking about them. With far more fleshed out backstories and developed personalities, I had more than enough data to push me in one direction or another. Aerith is a sweet, caring, kind, and uniquely powerful woman. Tifa is tough, tenacious, fiercely loyal, and supremely talented. Aerith seems to have a crush on me (Cloud), and Tifa still seems to be holding a candle for me from our shared childhood. I went back and forth all game, and in the end I was happy to discover you don’t really have to choose. The game chooses for you based on how you interact with each character, how many of their missions you’ve done, your bond, etc. So I knew when the night came and I swung open my hotel door, the right woman would be waiting. And that woman was…

…Yuffie!? Wtf! And apparently I was more into her than I knew because I got the “intimate” date! To say I was shocked would not be adequate. I specifically spent a ton of time with Aerith and Tifa. It’s not like I neglected Yuffie, I tried to keep up with all of my team members, but how she ended up my number one girl, and to that level… I have no clue. Having said that, our date was adorable and I did actually think wait a minute… am I missing out? I really loved how they expanded her character and brought her to life in this game. Sure, she can be a bit… much at times. But she’s fun, energetic, super skilled, and very cute. I think I’m leaning Aerith overall this round, but the fact that Yuffie is a contender was a real surprise. And neither of them hold a candle to Jessie, but that ship has sailed, sadly. Anywho, in the end, I loved my time with Final Fantasy VII Rebirth, tears and all. Bring on the final chapter.

Princess Peach: Showtime!

As a big Princess Peach stan (she features prominently in my video game tattoo sleeve, even), I was cautiously optimistic about Princess Peach: Showtime! when it was announced. I liked Peach’s first solo game, Super Princess Peach, more than most, it seems, but I didn’t like how all of Peach’s powers were emotions, as if she wasn’t yoinking vegetables out of the ground with the best of them in Super Mario Bros. 2. It sure seems like Nintendo was conscious of not making the same mistake twice… mostly. Yes, Peach throws aside those “girly” emotions and plays a range of types in this game, including traditionally “fem” roles like patissiere, ice skater, and mermaid, but also some more typically “masc” roles, like ninja, superhero, and Kung-fu master. But she only steps into these roles by *checks notes* playing dress-up? 

Okay, so maybe Nintendo still isn’t letting Peach be the badass girly that she is, but I still had a fun time with Showtime!. It was on the easy side, which was kind of a bummer. I don’t think easy games are inherently bad, but I like how Nintendo handles difficulty in mainline Mario games, where much of the required gameplay is fairly easy or medium, but there are some optional levels that are brutal. As with Super Princess Peach, this choice felt a little like it might be suggesting that girls, the primary audience for this game, aren’t as skilled at games as boys. To be fair to them, their argument might be that they don’t think that girls are bad at games, only that they aren’t as interested in difficult challenges as typical male gamers, but… I dunno. Feels a little fishy. Regardless, Peach was cute as hell throughout this game. I was snapping screenshots every time she appeared in a new costume, hitting those poses and being all girlypop. And the game felt really good to play. I loved zipping around as Ninja Peach, skating elegantly as Figure Skater Peach, and riding a trusty steed as Cowgirl Peach. The climax of the game, with a massively powerful Mighty Peach bashing the ever-loving shit out of everything in her way, was particularly fun and rewarding. Plus, as always, Peach is cute as hell.

Astro Bot

I’m not sure a single game has made me feel as much joy as Astro Bot. I’ve loved my time with so many games, and even some of my favorites like Persona 5 have had lots of joyful moments. But Astro Bot is just saturated with adorable charm. I kept finding myself smiling or thinking “this is so good” constantly. The game controls well, as it did with Astro’s Playroom, which is critical in a platformer. Beyond that, this game expands on and adds to everything that made Playroom great. There are lots of great power-ups/abilities (the sponge and mouse levels are so great), the DualSense integration is still best in class, and there was always some small, fun new thing for me to do. Seriously, just running around through piles of broken pixels or leaves or junk was never not fun.

I wasn’t the lead copywriter on this game, but I was briefed in on it very early. The brand manager for Team Asobi mentioned that there would be special powers and courses for PlayStation first party characters, like Kratos and Aloy. I asked if there would be a return of third party characters from PlayStation’s lineage, from games like Resident Evil and Metal Gear Solid, like there was in Playroom. I essentially got a “wait and see” answer, so I was a little nervous that we wouldn’t see them again. Nope. First and third party cameos for dayyyys in this game. There are little nods, like pushing the Katamari ball or Jill Valentine hiding from zombie dogs, but then there are whole levels or sections dedicated to games like Ape Escape and Loco Roco! Even Persona 4 Golden got a couple of amazing cameos! Hell yeah.

References and inside jokes can only take you so far, but Astro Bot doesn’t disappoint as a platformer, either. There are constantly new, simple mechanics to pick up and use to get through tons of inventive, delightful levels. And those levels are varied and never overstay their welcome, which can also be said of the game itself. There is a ton for you to do, but it never felt bloated or rote. Many of the levels were pretty straightforward, but there were definitely some challenging levels and parts, too. Those PlayStation Shapes levels took me a try or two. Or three. Dozen. I also love the return of all of the detailed, realistic models of PlayStation hardware, especially in the final level where it all comes together in a massive cosmic assault. And, yeah, the ending made me weep like a lil baby. I love this game, and I can’t wait for more people to play it and experience the joy.

Mister Mosquito

Part of PlayStation’s legacy, in my opinion, is taking chances on quirky, unique titles. Noby Noby Boy and Katamari Damacy come to mind, as does Mister Mosquito. I’ve had my eye out for a decently priced used copy of this game for years. I recently bought the Japanese version because the cover art is hilarious (and I’m hoping to someday be able to play it and understand the language). But an English copy has eluded me to this point, which is why I was shocked to see PlayStation was releasing it for PS Plus! This game is very weird, and not just because you’re a mosquito going around sucking blood. The story, writing, voice acting… all weird and wonderful. I remember playing my friend’s copy when it came out and feeling like it gets pretty challenging like halfway through. That’s still true, but with the trusty rewind function now in play, I was able to get pretty far this time around. And trophies! Always a nice perk, especially when added to older games. Now if only Square Enix would port Chrono Trigger…

Dragon Age: The Veilguard

This is another game where I was glad I didn’t have to write a review for it. As with FFXVI, my opinion about Dragon Age: The Veilguard as an RPG is markedly different from my opinion about it as a Dragon Age game. Let me get the whiny stuff out of the way first. The art style never grew on me. I was so hyped when the trailer for this game dropped. I’ve been playing Bioware games since Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic, and I’ve loved almost every game they’ve put out. KotOR? Banger. Jade Empire? Banger. Mass Effect and Dragon Age? B-b-b-bangers. There is something about the classic Bioware formula that I couldn’t get enough of. So when the trailer for Veilguard dropped and it looked like they were drawing inspiration from Fortnite and other stylized, cartoony popular games, I can’t deny I cringed. How do you go from a grimdark, realistic style to… this? It changes the entire tone of the game, evident by the game further leaning into humor, quips, and Marvel-like cheeky exchanges. I don’t mind a bit of that, and there was some of it in previous Dragon Age games. But this felt like too much of a shift for me. I thought maybe I’d get used to it after a while, once the gameplay and story hooked me. Nope. I wouldn’t say I “hated” it, but I certainly didn’t like it, and it’s hard when you have such a history with a series not to feel a little bitter and burned. This all might sound superficial, but I do have one slightly more significant gripe. That Bioware formula that I love? It’s here, to be sure. But it doesn’t feel like they’re making much progress in expanding and refining it? If you look at their previous games, you see that in each game they’re pushing things a little further, allowing you to romance more people or making it more natural, trying to flesh out their social systems more and more, pushing the envelope with regards to the romance scenes (remember the “Sexbox” debacle?). The romance and social systems in this game were fine. I’m not saying I didn’t enjoy them. But after waiting so long for a new Bioware game, and a big return to a beloved series, I was hoping for more progress and improvement on the formula I love so much.

Okay, phew. If you’re still here and don’t hate me too much, I do have some very positive things to say about the game as well. As I said, I was disappointed in it as a Dragon Age sequel (especially for being in development for so long), but I did have a great time with it as an RPG. Similarly, I didn’t like the art style for a Dragon Age sequel, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t beautiful and had some gorgeous vistas and awesome character design. But let me back up a bit and start at the beginning, with my Rook. Because I loved the Grey Warden lore and main storyline from the first game, I chose to also be a Grey Warden here. My background felt like it fit so naturally into the game world and plots, so kudos to the creative team because I’m guessing the other backgrounds feel similarly tailor-made for the greater narrative. I also generally tried to make my Rook look like me, as I always do, which made for a fun scene where I (Rook) meet myself (Inquisitor) from the last game (and in Inquisition I [Inquisitor] met me [Warden]).

As for companions and allies, I was of course thrilled to see Morrigan return in a somewhat prominent role. I haven’t written a Video Game Crushes post on her yet, but she is probably among my favorite romance partners in gaming. She’s a strong, scary, sexy goth witch that can turn into a dragon! A very specific kind of Kryptonite for me, maybe? I was, of course, bummed that I once again could not romance her in this sequel. And it wasn’t even like she was like “I can’t, my great love Warden Joey is waiting for me at home.” At least then I could nod with bittersweet appreciation that the me from the first game is still with her. Nope. None of the romance options in Veilguard can compare to my Witch of the Wilds, but I ended up being pretty happy with my romance with Neve. She is gorgeous, talented, a cool detective, and she has a sexy accent. A small thing I really appreciated was how she gave me the nickname “Trouble” halfway through the game, then kept referring to me by it as the story progressed. One of my complaints about the romances in previous Bioware games is that they didn’t feel as pervasive as I’d have liked. Like, this is my new true love and we’ve expressed our deep affection for one another and then… we just treat each other like coworkers most of the time? Veilguard doesn’t quite fully solve that problem (it’s not an easy one to solve, if you think about all the writing and extra scripting it would require), but it’s a simple and elegant solution in the short term.

You know who else I loved? Well, yes, Assan. And my man Manfred! Definitely. But his master, Emmrich, has to be one of my favorite Dragon Age characters ever. I love that he’s this badass necromancer, but actually very soft-spoken and kind? He has such reverence for the arts he practices and both life and death. He’s charming, wise, and has a great sense of humor. And, yeah, having Manfred with him for most of the game doesn’t hurt. Emmrich’s companion quest, becoming a necromancer, was incredible. I love how they treated the role and made it about so much more than just revive-dead-get-power. I felt so proud of him for going through the process and honored that he allowed me to accompany him. And the fight with the giant mech-like skeleton? The council of necromancers? The Necropolis? All rad as hell. It was a very tough choice when it came time to decide the fate of Manfred, but ultimately I feel like we made the right call in allowing him to rest. RIP, rock-paper-scissors buddy.

Speaking of tough choices, I have to say I really dislike when games force you to make an impossible choice that results in something bad either way. I understand it creates tension and a huge rise in drama and can sometimes be reflective of reality, but… come on. It feels sadistic. I say this because I absolutely resented having to make the choice between Harding and Davrin/Assan. Davrin rubbed me the wrong way at first, but once we got into his companion quests and saving the griffons, I came around. And I love Assan, so much. The choice between them was spoiled for me a bit earlier, so for hours I was convinced I would choose to sacrifice Harding. I liked her, but… Assan, man. So innocent. So cute. But when the time came, literally at the last minute, I chose to allow Davrin and Assan to make the ultimate sacrifice. Davrin saw it as part of his destiny, and we saved Assan’s family and the future of all griffons, so it just felt like the “right” thing to do. Damn it.

I can fix her.

Okay, let me shotgun some thoughts and move on. I did like the combat. I didn’t love the loot system. It’s made for people who love builds, and that’s not really me. I don’t like putting a lot of work and time into doing a quest or exploring an area just to find a flashy chest that contains a piece of gear I’ll never use because it’s not for my build. And that was like 80%+ of the gear chests I opened. There were some cool weapons and armor, though. I rocked the Mass Effect suit for most of the game. So many dragons. Very fun fights. Was Isabela always this fine? Because holy hell. I feel foolish, but I did not see the twist with Varric coming, which was a nice(?) surprise. I got the ending where you talk Solas into binding himself to the Veil. It might have been somewhat disappointing as a Dragon Age game, but I liked it enough as a game to get the platinum trophy, for what that’s worth.

Infinity Nikki

I’ve never been interested in dress-up games, but I am a fan of pretty things. The older I get, the more I like to just, like, look at pretty stuff. And this game seems filled with glitter and cute things, and it’s free to play, so I decided to give it a shot. I’ve played it for about 17 hours now, and I do have a few thoughts. It is, indeed, very cute. I don’t know much about fashion and style, but the dresses and outfits in this are so pretty. You can also groom pretty much any animal you see, so I get very excited when I see a new animal, like a horse-like creature, and rush to meet (and brush) it. The game is a collect-a-thon, which is mostly good. I haven’t gotten around to using much of it yet, but I do enjoy running around and grabbing the various (and plenty) shiny flowers and shells and such. 

That said, there are so many materials and currencies in this game it’s head-spinning. The gameplay, in terms of traversal and combat, is very simple. The systems, for crafting, buying things, etc., are anything but simple. I’m slowly starting to understand them, but sheesh. And I think that is, in part, what will probably drive me to disengage eventually. It hasn’t required me to purchase anything to succeed at the main quest so far, but when games are centered around trying to get you to buy things and spend real money for in-game currency, it’s hard for me not to see it in every design choice. Is this mission impossible because they want me to buy something? Are the dresses I have access to not as pretty as they could be because they want me to purchase the prettier ones? I’m not condemning the game for these things yet, but I do wonder when I’ll run into that. For now, I’m content to run around, brush my little cuties, try on beautiful dresses, and do the fairly simple quests and puzzles.

LocoRoco

When I saw the LocoRoco level in Astro Bot, I thought, oh yeah, I never got around to checking that game out! I only got a PSP recently, so I never had the chance to play the original. I do remember the 1UP Show podcasters talking highly of it, though, back in the day. I downloaded the remastered version recently and I get what the hype was about. It’s a pretty simple puzzle game, which is good for a portable system, and it’s so cute and weird. The sounds the little LocoRoco make as they break apart and come back together, the way they sing along to some of the music, the annoying little Moja enemies, all great. I’ve only finished the first world so far, but I’ll definitely be going back to this one.

Never felt so represented in my life.

Sly Cooper and the Thievius Raccoonus

Will I go back to Sly Cooper and the Thievius Raccoonus after getting flustered as hell at the first Murray racing level? Probably, but I did have to step away from it for a bit. Things were going so smoothly, too. I’d beaten the first world, was enjoying the colorful art style, with the bold black outlines, I’d collected most of the clue bottles, and was just generally having a pretty good time. Even the Murray sniping level was really fun. But then that damned racing mission reared its head. I feel free to vent about it because when I looked online for tips, it seems like a common point of frustration for many players. And the nifty new-gen rewind feature doesn’t do much to help. Well, I’ll get back to it soon, and a friend who is a big Sly fan is stopping by tomorrow, so maybe with his guidance I’ll breeze through it and get back to what is otherwise a fun, nostalgic platformer.

Phasmophobia (PS5)

Ah, Phasmophobia. I wrote at some length about the game just over four years ago, when it was still in early access on Steam. I’d played for about 61 hours at that point, which felt like a lot. I’m now at 1,294 hours on PC, 155 hours on PS5. Yep. I wrote in that post about how this game scared me in a way no other game has. It made me stink-sweat, especially when I tried to play it by myself. And I can’t really explain why. I don’t believe in ghosts, so it’s not like I thought some apparition was going to pop out of the TV and possess my cat. It was just very unsettling. And now here I am, almost 1,500 hours later, and it’s become a comfort game for me that I still play at least once or twice a week. I was beyond stoked when they announced it was coming to console, and after about a year of delays, it finally landed this Halloween.

The first time I logged in and played with the DualSense instead of keyboard and mouse, it felt very weird. I was convinced it would take forever to get used to. But after tweaking the button mapping a bit, it felt a lot more natural. Some things don’t seem to look as good on PS5, like the DOTS projector, but some things (like lighting and some textures) look better to me. I was a little bummed that I was leaving behind my Steam profile and all that I’d accomplished on it, but it has been fun accomplishing those things again and being rewarded for it with trophies. I’m just six trophies shy of the platinum now. Three of those will happen pretty naturally (Demon kill, prestige level three, weekly challenges), but I am sort of dreading the grind that it’ll take to get the Apocalypse Challenge trophies. Regardless, I’m still having a blast hunting for ghosties with friends (I even convinced some of my PlayStation colleagues to try it with me! There was at least one uncontrolled yelp of fear, so I’m counting it as a win), and I hope to write about it again when Phasmophobia 2 hits PS6 in 2028.*

*Just kidding, I have zero insider knowledge about a sequel to Phasmophobia or PS5, sadly

Wingspan

I played the original (board game) version of Wingspan once, like, many months ago. Maybe over a year? I can’t quite remember the details, but I remember really digging it. It’s technically a competitive game, where you collect birds and eggs and complete goals to get points and win against other players. But it’s the kind of game, like Disney Villainous, where you have your own board and can just kind of focus on your own goals. So that’s what I did. I tried to collect and play birds that I liked. Blue jays, owls, mockingbirds, ravens, hawks, etc. I just liked looking at the incredible bird art and hearing their sounds with an app that scans the cards. I bought the PS5 version when it came out, but didn’t get around to playing it right away. I recently found myself playing the board game again, for what I think is only the second time ever, and I was like “why have I not played the console version again?” So I did.

And I play it exactly how I do the board game. I mind my own business and play cool birds to learn little facts about them and build out my compendium. I set it to one easy AI competitor and just go. It’s such a chill, relaxing game. The art is gorgeous, the music is soothing, and just playing to play new bird cards is so calming. I even went and bought the two expansions and have started playing with those in my decks. I don’t really understand the new goals/rules, but there are even more colorful little dinosaurs for me to scoop up, so it’s been well worth it.

I’m finishing the rough version of this post at 9:21pm on New Year’s Eve in my time zone, so I fulfilled my promise to myself to get it done before the new year, heh. Hopefully I can get it edited and up by midnight. Either way, if you’re reading this, I hope you had a great 2024 filled with amazing games and other fulfilling hobbies, and I hope your 2025 is even better. And let’s end with a Persona 3 Reload screenshot dump because I ended up uploading a ton, expecting I’d write a whole post about it, but now they have no home. So… welcome home, little screenshots.

Video Game Crushes: Mitsuru Kirijo

If a game has a dating system, you can be pretty sure that I have a “crush” from that game. How could I not? I love romance systems in games, and I’ve gushed about how much I enjoyed those systems in the Persona series, which famously includes a dating sim-like feature. I’d already played Persona 4 Golden and Persona 5 by the time I got around to Persona 3 Portable, so I knew going in that my character would have to keep an eye out for his future bae. Wait… do people say bae anymore? I don’t think they do. I haven’t heard it in… a long time. Man, that word was all over the place for a while, and it was so useful for describing silly crushes on fictional characters. Let’s just pretend that I’m writing this post in 2018 and run with it. Where was I? Oh yes. In 2018. Looking for bae in all the wrong places.

You meet Mitsuru Kirijo pretty early in P3P, and as soon as I saw her I remember thinking “welp, call off the search, I think I found my future waifu.” Wait… do people still use waifu? Stop it, Joey, no one’s reading this and no one cares. Waifu. Bae. Booboo babykins. Okay, no one ever used that one. Let’s just move on.

I have long had a thing for red hair, so Mitsuru’s long, crimson locks, draped mysteriously over one eye, almost had me sold on her just by virtue of existing. It worked so well with her white and red outfit, too, so I pretty instantly had cartoon heart eyes and was ready to have my character virtually propose marriage. But I hope I’ve made it clear, if you’ve read any of the other entries in this series, that looks aren’t always what draws me to these fictional ladies. Some of them are stunning, yes, but there are literally thousands of attractively drawn/modelled characters, spanning decades of games. Hell, in the Persona series alone, most of the characters are some kind of cute/attractive. I needed to know more about Mitsuru before I went shopping for a little pixel engagement ring.

And, I have to say, as quickly as I fell for her appearance, I was almost as quickly turning my attention elsewhere. As beautiful as Mitsuru is, I found her to be cold, calculating, and dedicated almost exclusively to work. I found out pretty early that she is heir to her father’s company, The Kirijo Group, which executes shadowy research and development all around the world. As it turned out, Mitsuru took her responsibility to her father and the company very seriously, so every move she made was done in service to her role as future president of the company. Every class, every hobby, every friend had to either serve her future goals or stand aside. And romance? What’s that? Mitsuru agreed to an arranged marriage because it would strategically benefit her father’s company. It’s not uncommon to marry for reasons other than love in Japan, but Mitsuru’s fiancé was a really piece of classist, arrogant, manipulative, abusive shit.

It’s not that I didn’t respect her situation and the immense stress she must feel with such a future hanging over her head, but it created an impenetrable wall that I just couldn’t crack, no matter how charming and flirty I was. Well, the protagonist in P3P isn’t exactly smooth, so my many attempts to chat her up between missions were probably more awkward than debonair. Less “hey, baby,” and more “uh……………….. hi?” Which, if we’re being honest, is far more like me in real life, so I guess it works out. My point is that I didn’t get very far when I tried to get to get to know her. She was all work and no play, and as the leader of our merry gang, that philosophy extended to those around her as well. The summer break is much shorter in Japan than it is in US schools, but it’s still a welcome respite from seemingly endless exams and studying. Well, thanks to Mitsuru, we didn’t get that break, because she signed the whole group up for extra classes. For our own benefit, she said. So it wasn’t long before I just accepted that Mitsuru and I probably weren’t meant to be and began considering my other options.

Yukari seemed an obvious candidate, and maybe even the character the game intends for you to get with. She’s cute, funny, pretty laid back. She’s a good friend. And what about Aigis? She’s a badass robot chick! She is literally made to kick ass, she undergoes incredible growth and development as she becomes more and more human, and her voice is absolutely amazing. Heck, I was even considering Toriumi. As the staple teacher romance option, there is the taboo element that comes with a teacher/student relationship, even in Japan, but she is a writing teacher who loves video games and computers, and she’s pretty dang attractive. She is almost too perfectly suited for me. Luckily for me, I played Portable, the only version of the game that actually allows you to romance every character without penalty (unless you don’t make a final, definitive choice, I think). I was able to explore what relationships with all of these characters and more would be like. Mitsuru was not among them, at first. My uncertainty toward her may have played a part, but she was also not interested in pursuing a romance, given her arranged engagement.

So we beat on, fists against the faces of shadows. But things began to change. With the social, academic, and familial pressures on her mounting, Mitsuru came to some vital realizations about her life. One of the key lessons in Persona games (and most JRPGs, really) is that you can’t do it all on your own. We are at our best and most powerful, these games suggest, when we have the support of our friends, family, teammates, and community. Mitsuru began to let me in. We hung out. We talked. I actually made her laugh. And in what began as an uncomfortable conflict with her fiancé, where he threatened her and the future of her company if she didn’t honor their engagement, she snapped. Not then, in the moment, but the crack had formed that would break her open and reveal her true self. Like a true persona user, she was undergoing a dramatic awakening.

She maintained all of her strengths, including her brilliance with business, fierce intelligence, selfless leadership acumen, and determination to succeed, only now she added steadfast independence, loyalty to herself and her friends, infinite charm, and an empathy that allows her to see the world in a less fixed, impermanent way. She is still the heir to a huge company, still a top student with infinite potential, and still a badass fighter and friend. And, of course, she still rocks those red tresses and that coy smile, meaning she is a dangerous combo of beauty and beastly intellect and strength. I had fun flirting with the other characters in Persona 3 Portable, but with her awakening, Mitsuru became my clear favorite. I’m grateful that I was able to see her again in Persona 3: Dancing in Moonlight, but I’m really hoping for the long-rumored Persona 3 remake/remaster to come out so I can revisit all of my friends and, above all, my bae. My waifu. My redheaded booboobabykins. Mitsuru.

Video Game Crushes: Ann Takamaki

I am fairly deep into Persona 5 Strikers right now, and although I’ll probably dedicate a separate post to my thoughts about the game overall, I will say now that I am loving my time with it. I doubt I’m the only Persona 5 fan that was expecting this game to be a simple, shallow distraction while we waited for a new mainline Persona game (or a remake of Persona 3, *fingers crossed emoji*), but it feels far more like a true sequel to Persona 5 than I could have hoped for. Part of the reason for that feeling, I think, is that so much of my love for Persona 5 was due to the excellent cast of characters, and all of our favorite Phantom Thieves are back at it in Strikers, with their original voice actors in tow. The subject of this particular post is one such character: Ann Takamaki, aka Panther.

Before I start, I have to acknowledge the issue of age. While these entries aren’t meant to critically analyze these characters, I want to be clear that I understand there are issues with how this series sexualizes some of its teenage female characters, and Ann happens to be a prime example of that. Aside from that, I am quickly becoming an Aging, Ancient Gamer, so for me to be writing about characters that are so much younger than I am is, maybe, a little icky for some. I understand that, but I want to make it clear (if it’s not obvious) that I don’t have actual crushes on these characters, especially the morally problematic ones such as Ann. My “crush” on Ann is as a character, for one, but more importantly it comes from the context of the game. If I allow myself to live the fantasy presented to me, that I am a teen boy in high school, then Ann would be my crush in that fictional world. I know this might seem like an excessive and unnecessary prelude for some, because the romance aspect of these games is often cited as something that people love, so I know I’m not the only one with a “crush” character, but I delayed writing this entry for so long because I worried that it might come across as lecherous or gross. My opinions about Ann as an element of a product created by people are very different than my feelings about her as a character in this fictional world that I love. Okay. I think I’ve probably said more than I need to, so let’s get back to Ann.

Although Persona 5 was my introduction to the series, I had some idea of what to expect in terms of gameplay and content before playing it. I knew there was a social aspect to its RPG elements, and you could increase your link with characters to the point where you romanced them. Being a fan of romance options in games, I had fun guessing who I might romance before I actually sat down to play the game. Makoto seemed like an obvious choice, followed closely by Kawakami (who I think resembles Alison Brie, particularly in the show GLOW, who is my celebrity crush). Ann? The seemingly stereotypical preppy, pretty girl? Nah. Booooring.

Ann is one of the first characters you can romance, though, because she joins your group very early and you’re able to spend a lot of time with her before you even meet other characters. So, as my social link with her crept up, I almost felt like the game was treating her like the default choice. Early on, I was sure I’d resist the temptation to up and romance the first character that came my way. As the story progressed and I spent more time with her, however, I began to have a… change of heart. Yes, yes, I said The Thing. Take a shot if you’ve played the game and were waiting for that.

It’s easy for me as an American to look at Ann and imagine that she is probably very popular and highly sought after. She has some of the very basic markers of “traditional beauty” for western women and girls: the fair skin, the blonde hair, the impossibly blue eyes. As it turns out, these features make her something of an oddity in a Japanese high school, and she talks about feeling alienated and ostracized. I was a little dismissive of that at first, I have to admit. “Oh, really? The blue-eyed, blonde-haired beauty feels like a freak? Okay. Sure.” But Ann’s background and history really broke me down over time, and I began to think that my western idea of what is “beautiful” is probably a bit restrictive. Not in the sense that I think her beauty is superior to anyone else’s, but more that I imagine that others value it the same way I might. That’s not to say that Ann wouldn’t be considered beautiful in Japan. She’s a model, so clearly her looks are valued by people. But as many people can attest, high schoolers can be cruel, and students who are different are often not exactly treated kindly.

After I let the fact sink in that she, like Ryuji and Joker, was a bit of an outcast, I began to see her differently. She’s not motivated by popularity and the adulation of others, as I suspected she might be from the game’s promotional art. She’s incredibly determined to be successful at her career, to the point where she is even unavailable for a time due to balancing her work and school life. I certainly don’t fetishize work culture, but I like that she has the drive to keep trying, even when she faces the setbacks that she does. One of those setbacks is that she isn’t as fit or trim as the other models she’s competing against, which is very weird to consider given the fact that virtually everyone in these games is pretty thin. She makes a couple of valiant attempts to lose weight and get fitter, but her love of sweet always wins out in the end. It me, as the kids say.

Part of what might be at the center of her tenacity is her seemingly eternal optimism. She’s not the kind of flighty blonde you might find in other media, where her optimism comes from a lack of awareness or detachment from reality. Ann is smart and knows when things are grim, but she also knows that it’s important for a friend group to have someone who reminds them that things aren’t as terrible as they seem. Hope is never lost. In Strikers, the first major enemy you face is an idol whose twisted desires for revenge have made her into a cruel, abusive, malevolent pop star who delights in using her fame to treat people the way she was treated when she was in high school. Recognizing a fellow outcast and victim of bullying, Ann acts as the group’s moral compass when tensions run high and some want to make her pay in much harsher ways. Ann’s ability to empathize with even some of the most unlikeable and aggressive enemies is something I admire. She doesn’t empathize with Kamoshida, though, which is good. Because fuck that guy.

Aside from all that, she’s just a great, funny teammate with some serious firepower. Get it? Fire power? Because her particular magical affinity is fire? What’s that? You didn’t know that because you’ve never played the game? You’re just being nice and reading this because you’re my friend? Fair enough. But, trust me; it was almost a funny joke. Seriously, though, in my first playthrough of the game, Ann was my heaviest hitter. While JRPGs have a long history of making the “pretty” girls healers, Ann was nothing of the sort for me. She was a whip-cracking, flame-slinging, Persona-wielding, badass bitch, and I was here for it. Or, er, there for it. In the past. In that fictional realm.

I love so many of the characters in the Persona games, but Ann has become something of a representative of my love for the series and characters as a whole. She’s great all on her own, but being my first bae in a series that I would come to adore and obsess over, she’s kind of a symbol of my love for the entire series. I have an Ann poster, t-shirt, statue, phone case, mask… I even have an Ann tattoo! So, yes, I have a crush on the fictional character of Ann, but she also represents my even bigger real-world crush on Persona and all of the magic that has come with every single game I’ve played since my first adventures in Persona 5. I am grateful that I’m getting a whole new set of adventures with these characters in Strikers, and I hope there are even more games with this cast to come. This summer, I am planning on watching every Persona anime available, so I’m excited to get even more time with my virtual, fictional friends soon. *nerd emoji*

Save Point: Discussing My Dissertation

When I started this site, one of my intentions was to use it as a place to write notes and short blurbs about my dissertation as I researched and worked on it. I did post a thing or two about some book notes, but I haven’t really done much else. There are a couple of reasons for this. One, I think, is that I just didn’t feel very confident about my topic – for a while, at least. I am in a fairly traditional English department, so other than our one digital rhetoric professor, there isn’t much of a place for a dissertation that is essentially a video games studies project. The process of writing my prospectus was basically filled with anxiety and stress about convincing my committee that this project had the potential to be important and relevant. I was continually hearing dissenting voices in my head. “But why does this thing matter? What are you actually bringing to the field? Do you really know enough to write this?” But after I wrote my prospectus and began converting it into a presentation, I found my confidence again. Mostly. I won’t sit here and say there aren’t still doubts, but in the process of condensing my prospectus and thinking of how to verbally pitch it, I ended up convincing myself that it was as good as I had originally thought when I came up with the idea.

So, having said all that, I am going to start posting blogs about my work. The second of the previously mentioned reasons for not doing so earlier is that I was nervous about people taking my ideas. After much reflection, I have come to conclude: who gives a shit. I’m doing this work with the intent to share it anyway, and I don’t love academia’s habit of hoarding and gating off knowledge to boot. What scenario is that little anxiety-corner of my brain imagining? That someone will see my blogs and publish their own version of my dissertation? I mean, maybe, but that seems pretty unlikely, especially given that I have lots of material that I’m not posting. What is more likely, I think, is that someone might end up seeing this and thinking “hey, that’s kind of like my work,” and if I’m lucky, they’ll reach out and I’ll have a new contact/friend to chat about video games and research with.

Future posts will probably be a lot more specific. I don’t have an exact plan for what I’ll be sharing. Sometimes it will be fully formed thoughts, sometimes it will be aimless rambles, sometimes it will just be interesting tidbits (to me) that I may or may not even end up using for anything. With that, I suppose I should say a little about what my project actually is. The working title of my dissertation is Soft Power-Up: Japanese Games as Cultural and Rhetorical Exports. The “soft power” in the play on words in the first part of the title is kind of a key component of the project. Soft power is a term that essentially describes a nation’s capacity to influence other nations with culture, rather than traditional forms of global power, like military might and economics. There have been lots of studies on Japan’s use of soft power to fill the gap left by its loss in economic superpower status in the 1980s. Most of these studies focus on widely known things like sushi, karaoke, tea ceremonies, anime, manga, and more. Studies on the use of video games as a part of this national strategy seem surprisingly lacking. The most recent edition of The Cambridge Companion to Modern Japanese Culture has chapters on music, education, food, anime, and much, much more, but there is not a single chapter on video games. This edition was published in 2009, which is far too recent for any excuses of “well video games weren’t big yet.” Video games are and have been huge exports for Japan since the 1980s, to the point of being the only cultural product that Japan exports more than it imports.

So it seems like a no-brainer to me to study this. I was recently pointed toward Rachael Hutchinson’s book Japanese Culture Through Video Games, published just last year (after I had stopped research for my prospectus), which seems to cover much of what I intend to look at in my work. I have yet to read it, because academic texts are vastly overpriced and I am a poor grad student, but I’ll hopefully find a cheap copy soon. I feel pretty confident that my approach will be different enough that I won’t be treading the same ground, but I can’t deny I was a little sad to see that someone had (at least partially) beat me to print. On the other hand, I was so excited and felt weirdly vindicated (to the doubting voices in my head, anyway) to see that a very close approximation of my idea was not only taken seriously by another scholar, but published by a major press as well.

One thing that differentiates my project from Hutchinson’s (I think) is our choice of case studies. Of all the games noted in her introduction and table of contents, I don’t see any mention of the Persona, Yakuza, or Resident Evil series, or Death Stranding, and these are the games that I’ll be looking closely at. She does have a whole chapter on absentee parents which I am interested to read, because that is one of the many aspects of Japanese culture I see reflected in a metric crap ton of Japanese games and was planning on talking about in my project. I chose the Persona and Yakuza series because they both take place in real Japan, often depicting real, specific locations that exist today. So they offer insight into how the developers chose to depict their culture in explicit terms. On the other hand, there are notable Japanese games that are set in America or other Western settings, like the Resident Evil games and Death Stranding. I want to use these games to show that, regardless of setting, there are a whole host of aspects of Japanese culture that end up showing through in these games (in implicit terms). When consideration of these two types of games are combined, I hope to show what Japanese games are “saying” about Japan to the Western world, how that message has changed over time, and why it all matters.

Okay, I should shut up. As usual, I am mostly writing these for myself, to work out and solidify ideas, and just start writing things out that might be useful later. However, I’m also sharing this for anyone that’s interested in Japanese games, is or will be writing a dissertation, or is in any of the many fields related to games studies. If you want to reach out, please do. I’d be happy to answer any questions or share/swap sources. Thanks for reading, and look forward to more posts like this. Or don’t, I guess. That’s cool, too. You do you.

Thievie Wonders: My New Phantom Thieves Mask Collection

I am a little over 200 hours into Persona 5 Royal at the moment and I’ve detailed my love of the core game and the series in previous posts. I have yet to play the new post-original-endgame content yet, so maybe I’ll cover that in the future, but I just made a purchase that is incredibly timely and relevant. As those very astute readers may have guessed by looking at the title of this blog or the featured picture, I recently bought replicas of every Phantom Thief mask (except Morgana, because his mask is, uh… kinda his face) and I am so excited about it that I wanted to share.

Remember Erin, my tattoo artist? She is in the process of moving and doesn’t have space for these masks so she wanted “[her] babies going somewhere they will be APPRECIATED.” Her words, not mine, but she is 100% correct. I appreciate them so, so much. She originally purchased them from an artist who makes movie and video game prop replicas, DetravoidConcept. So today I woke up, wiped them down with a diaper (not really, ew, gross), and took a bunch of pictures that I’d like to share, along with some thoughts on the characters that they are worn by. Let me just note that I am close to the furthest thing from a photographer, but I tried my best, okay? *nervously sweating emoji*

Joker – Protagonist: “I’ve leveled up.”

Joker doesn’t have many memorable quotes because, well, he’s mostly a silent protagonist. This, combined with the ability for the player to select many of his dialogue choices, makes him a mostly blank canvas for the player to project themselves onto. Which means, Joker is me. So I think he’s a pretty cool guy. Sometimes. Usually. Maybe. On good days.

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Panther – Ann Takamaki: “A beautiful rose has thorns!”

Oh, Ann. So beautiful. So whippy. Ann looks like a bubbly, preppy, popular girl cliché, but it’s not long before you realize that she is an outcast much like you and the many friends you will meet on your journey. Ann is very pretty, yes, but I think it’s the mix of tenacity and hope that she exudes that I like most. A beautiful rose has thorns, indeed. I like making her my hard hitting magic user, because there’s something about her calling forth a shadow and absolutely incinerating enemies in torrential flames that just gets me every time.

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Skull – Ryuji Sakamoto: “For real!?”

Ryuji is the comic relief, yes, so he’s always good for a laugh – at him or with him. He’s hotheaded and a little light in the brains department, so when he attempts to spar with someone like Morgana or Ann, hilarity ensues every time. But you know what? He’s also always in your corner. Always. And sometimes you want nothing more than a hotheaded numbskull of a friend to have your back. That’s Ryuji. Cue sound clip: “What did you say!?”

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Fox – Yusuke Kitagawa: “I do not paint for the sake of others’ comprehension.”

Okay, so I know I painted Ryuji out to be the oafish comic relief, but Yusuke is also a bit daft. I suppose his dullness is more due to social ineptitude, because he seems to be a stellar student, but he sure is dense at times. I was not the biggest Yusuke fan, at first. Can you blame me? Our introduction to him is his stalking of Ann, and he is generally a vain, oblivious tool… for a while. He learns and reflects a lot over the course of the story, though, and even if he’s maybe not the best friend you could ask for by the end, at least he’s always good for a funny, all-too-serious comment about painting Ann in the nude.

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Queen – Makoto Niijima: “Fists of justice!”

I had to go with that quote from Queen because I get it stuck in my head all the damn time. I’ll be walking to the kitchen and pretend like I’m going to punch my refrigerator end-over-end and faux scream that quote. I’ll be playing with Bella, my cat, and yell “fists of justice!” as I slow-motion punch her in the stomach (and she grabs my hand with her claws and punishes me for my foolishness). It’s such a well delivered line, but I love that it comes from the typically prim and proper Ms. Student Body President. In my second playthrough, after seeing Makoto’s full story and getting to know her character beyond her initial pushy, aggressive profiling of us, I found her shadow awakening to be one of the most emotionally resonant. If anyone needed to suddenly sprout spiked shoulder pads and a badass, other-worldly motorcycle, it was Makoto Niijima.

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Oracle – Futaba Sakura: “Welp, ain’t no time like the present! Come on, let’s go!”

Oh, Futaba. Futaba, Futaba, Futaba. She has to be one of my favorite characters in all of gaming at this point. I was already with Ann by the time I got to Futaba in my first playthrough, but as soon as she started slinging zingers at Ryuji, or Inari, or anyone else who annoyed her, I’d decided to romance her in my second playthrough. It felt too weird for me, personally, so I don’t think I have that kind of affection for her, but her story is so tragic and her personality is so unique and goofy that I can’t help but feel some kind of intense love for her. This playthrough of Persona 5 Royal is my fourth time playing through the core P5 story, and I straight up cried again when I was doing her palace and the story that ensues. I would die for Futaba, man.

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Noir – Haru Okumura: “If I act with resolve and believe in my actions, I know I’ll be able to achieve anything.”

Haru is another character that took a while to grow on me, which I know is a sin to some, since she appears to be a huge fan favorite. She is adorably inept when you first come across her in the Metaverse, which was certainly endearing, but growing up in extreme privilege has crippled her in so many ways that it takes a while for her break through all of the shackles that bind her, emotionally, psychologically, socially… but she does, and she evolves into a strong, capable, compassionate businesswoman. And yet she retains her adorable voice and her elegant style… like a true Phantom Thief.

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Crow – Goro Akechi: “[some dumb, faux-humble thing]”

Man, fuck that guy.

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Violet – Kasumi Yoshizawa: “I love you, Joey-senpai!”

Okay, so that quote is a joke because I have yet to reach the new story content so I don’t have any fun quotes from her memorized at this point. I have interacted with her throughout the core story, though, so I already feel very good about my choice to romance her in this playthrough (though I have yet to get to that point, sad face). In her very first scene, which is surprisingly early in the game, she makes a graceful and impressive entrance, and then proceeds to gracefully impress her foot up some enemy ass. At one point early in the story, Morgana says that the Phantom Thieves are all about style, and Kasumi fits right in in that regard. I love her red, bouncy hair, I love how skilled she is, and I love that, like the rest of us, she is something of an outcast, beaten down by a system that doesn’t appreciate her. I can’t wait to get to know her better.

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And there you have it! I’ll include a few close-ups at the end, here, so you can see how good the detailing and paint jobs are. I should note that these things are very sturdy, too. Fully ready for cosplaying. I have yet to find a place to display them, but you can bet your ass they’ll be somewhere very visible, very soon. I love them. And I love the faces they were designed to cover (except Goro). And I love Persona 5 Royal, so I’m going to go play it now. Bye bye.

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Persona 3 Extravaganza

Apparently I’ve made a habit of playing a new Persona game every summer. In 2017, it was Persona 5, 2018 saw Persona 4: Golden, and this summer I finally got around to playing Persona 3 Portable. Part of this newly formed annual tradition is practical. Persona games are not short, and I really don’t like taking breaks in the midst of big games when work starts to pile up, so summer is the best time to really dig in and enjoy games like this. Aside from that, it’s actually become something kind of special for me. I’ve mentioned previously that I somehow, at some point, started getting seasonal summer depression every year. So having a game from a series that I’ve grown to love to distract me, even for just a couple of weeks, and one that imprints itself onto my memory in such a warm and magical way that only the best kinds of video games can, has become invaluable to me. Even though I ran out and bought the PlayStation 2 versions of Persona 3 and Persona 4 when I fell in love with Persona 5, I ended up choosing the PS Vita version of P4: Golden and the PSP entry of Persona 3, because in both cases I’d read that slight improvements had been made to things like combat that appealed to me.

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Having said that, I was pleasantly surprised by how good P4: Golden looked on my big HDTV. The scaling on the PS Vita software must be great, because I didn’t see nearly the kind of mud or aliasing that I’d expected to, given that it was designed for a screen the size of a medium cell phone. P3 Portable, on the other hand, looked pretty ugly when I first booted it up. And, well, the next several times I played it as well. Not that I was surprised. It was made almost twenty years ago for a four inch, low res screen. But even in terms of artwork and design, I was initially struck by how much… simpler this game was, compared to P4 and P5? ‘Simple’ is not the right word, but I could see early on in the game that many of the design elements (like the fluid menu screens, use of a primary color theme, etc.) were present but perhaps not as polished or iterated upon/layered as they would become in later installments.

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I’m sounding very negative for a game that I started this blog out implying that I liked very much, but my initial impressions were indeed somewhat muted by the lack of polish and the technical limitations. Speaking of technical limitations, even though I played this version on my PSTV, apparently the screenshot function doesn’t work for PSP ports, so I ended up using my phone to take pictures of my TV. So I apologize for any centering or blur issues, even though in many cases the pictures I took made things like fonts look softer and less jagged. Anyway, I want to say that all of these thoughts about how graphically inferior the game looked lasted a fairly short time. After getting into the story, and probably getting used to the visuals, I virtually forgot about the issue. Character, background, and creature designs were very familiar, so after a while the outdated graphics just didn’t affect my enjoyment of the game.

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And enjoy the game I did – maybe not as much as P4 and P5, but the same emotional pull snagged me in this entry as well. There are a lot of things to like about these games, but I think it’s the cast of characters and the relationships you build with them that draws me in the most. I’ve said before that my absolute favorite games are the ones that stick with me when I stop playing them – the kind that I find myself absent-mindedly imagining myself living in when I close my eyes to go to sleep. The worlds of the Persona games are rich and colorful and vibrant, but without the many characters that inhabit them, they are lonely and dull places to fantasize about. P3’s cast isn’t my favorite, but there are some absolute standouts, like Aigis, Ms. Toriumi, Chidori, and, even though he doesn’t speak, Koromaru. These and other characters have such interesting and unique backgrounds and side-stories that they really bring the world to life. And, of course, one of my favorite features of these games is the romance system. Although, I, uh, I have a bit of a confession to make:

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Okay, hold on, I know I look bad here, but let me explain. P3 doesn’t allow you to max out romanceable character’s social links without, well, romancing them, and not only did I want to max everyone, I also wanted to see every relationship play out for research. No, seriously! The Persona games are going to play a central role in my dissertation so I wanted to document the end of each relationship. But, you know what? Judge if you want, but I had a lot of fun dating everyone. There were a lot of fun ladies in this entry! And, as Chihiro will remind you:

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So. Yeah. Take that. Anyway, the first woman I saw was Mitsuru, and with her red hair and motorcycle, I was convinced that she would be the one I would fall for. But after talking to her for a while, she seemed very stiff and all-business, and I couldn’t seem to break through the walls she had put up to keep people at bay. So my first girlfriend was Chihiro, and I actually thought she might be my Ultimate Boo, too, because she was so shy and nerdy and kind and pretty. Alas, it wasn’t to be. I was also very keen on Aigis, and she is definitely Ultimate Boo Number Two, but the universe has a way of bringing things full circle sometimes, so of course I ended up totally falling for Mitsuru after all. Sure, she was all work and no play early on, but once I got closer to her and saw a peek behind the curtain of her life, it made perfect sense, and I grew to admire that about her. She wasn’t a robot (no offense, Aigis!), though. She was sensitive, passionate, fierce, and a freaking genius. Oh, and drop dead gorgeous, with her crimson hair, high boots, and perfect face.

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Okay, I’m letting the romance dominate this discussion, but a quick final note about the cast of characters. Playing these games in reverse order ended up producing exciting ‘cameos’ from characters in later games. The beach scenes were funny enough on their own, but I was literally laughing out loud when I saw Ms. Kashiwagi from Persona 4, because I knew what was coming. Obviously her appearance in P4 was more like a real cameo, but still. It was hilarious. And holy crap, President Tanaka is a dick.

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P4 and P5 obviously had lots of religious and cultural design elements from other nations/religions, especially in the designs of the shadows. I always thought the idea of essentially summoning Christian characters such as Satan and Lucifer to fight for you was interesting and potentially provocative, depending on who you asked. So I was especially surprised and, to be honest, tickled, to see some incredibly blatant Christian symbolism in P3, far more than in the other two games. You can still summon Satan and Lucifer to fight for you, but this time one of the primary antagonists bears a striking resemblance to certain depictions of Jesus, halo and all. And at a certain point your entire party is crucified. Add this to the fact that your characters have to commit mock-suicide in order to summon their personas, and I am totally blown away by the lack of controversy surrounding this game. I guess it was niche enough to escape any serious mainstream attention. Not that that’s a bad thing, of course. I shudder to think of how the rest of the series might have played out if the original P3 had been legitimately censored or boycotted.

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I haven’t been all that careful with spoilers here, but I’m usually pretty adamant about not being too explicit in explaining things so that I don’t spoil too much. But I can’t respond to the ending of the game without spoiling it in some sense. So, if you are concerned about that, skip ahead a bit. I’m not here to analyze it or anything, but I will say that it kind of fucked me up. I mean, the main character’s fate is technically implied, not explicitly spelled out, but it’s pretty clear that I died a slow, gradual death. Not only that, I did so in Aigis’s lap, just as she concluded her long internal journey of understanding her humanity and the fact that she will outlive me. I was happy to have the opportunity to run around and see my friends before the end, but of course many of them noted that I looked sick, which was hint enough to me that I was on the way out. Ugh, It was rough.

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So once again I found myself completely immersed in and in love with a Persona game. I will eventually go back and play the first two games in the series, even though I hear they aren’t quite the same as the most recent three. Although I played through both P4 and P5 more than once, I don’t have time to play through P3 a second time, which is unfortunate because I really wanted to check out the female protagonist and how her story is, apparently, somewhat different than her male counterpart’s. Maybe I’ll have time again someday. Until then, I have other games to fill my time, like…

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Persona 3: Dancing in Moonlight! I told you this was a Persona 3 extravaganza! I bought this game when it came out, but I didn’t want to play it until I played Persona 3 proper. When I first played Persona 5: Dancing in Starlight, I was so enamored with the beautiful, crisp, high definition character models of my beloved P5 cast, and the original P5 was released less than two years earlier, meaning the leap in graphical fidelity wasn’t exactly huge. So imagine my response going immediately from the antiquated, twenty year-old P3 Portable to the same kind of glittering, gorgeous renditions of my now-also-beloved P3 cast.

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My thoughts about this game are very similar to my thoughts about P5: DiS, because, well, the games were made in tandem and follow the same exact formula. I’m not complaining. It was a beautiful, fun extension of my time with these characters that I love. Most of the original P3 voice actors returned, and many of them sounded exactly the same, so it was an overload of sensory exhilaration. The gameplay itself is fairly basic but fun enough, and I love the attention to detail with the fun costumes, accessories, and levels, but the heart of the experience is seeing the cast interact with one another, their reaction to Elizabeth, and exploring their individual rooms.

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So I don’t have much else to say about the game other than that I had a lot of fun and , thus, ended up getting the platinum trophy for it, but I will repeat something that I said about P5: DiS. Seeing the care that went into developing these great new character models and levels, and the willingness to hire returning voice actors, made me wonder if Atlus would go through all of this work just for these dancing games. Creating assets that can be used and reused is becoming pretty common practice in the industry because it saves so much development time and money, and it’s hard not to wonder if P5: DiS’s character models will end up in Persona 5 Royal, so is it that much of a stretch to think that there will be some kind of new version or reboot or spinoff of Persona 3? Maybe, maybe not, I suppose. But I for one would welcome a return to Gekkoukan High, Paulownia Mall, and anywhere Mitsuru wants to take me on a date. Because she’s gonna be my sugar momma. Don’t @ me, as they say.

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So Much Funky Persona Goodness

I’ve shared my love for Persona 4 and Persona 5 in previous blogs, so it probably comes as little surprise that as soon as Atlus announced that Persona 3 and Persona 5 dancing games were not only coming out late in 2018, but would be offered in a limited edition bundle that included a digital version of the Persona 4 dancing game for the PS4 (for the first time), I immediately pre-ordered it. I played through P4 (Dancing All Night) and P5 (Dancing in Starlight) recently so I just wanted to jot down some thoughts because I’ve been playing a lot of games and am getting behind on writing about them.

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I played Dancing All Night first, because I had more recently played Persona 4 and it was the first of the Persona dancing games. I said in my blog about P4 that it is funnier than P5, and that humor made a welcome return in Dancing All Night. There was a surprising amount of story and dialogue in this game, and though the writing was generally less developed and punchy than it was in the core game, there were still several scenes that made me burst out laughing.

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The gameplay was pretty standard. It was simple enough to get into and appropriately challenging at times, even if sometimes there seemed like there was way too much going on at once to really see the prompts. I also find it impossible to watch the dancers while I’m playing, but thankfully they have a replay mode where you can watch a perfect version of a song. And it was a small thing, but I liked that you could dress your characters up in various outfits.

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I realized immediately that Rise’s (P4 bae) voice actor had changed, but I was happily surprised when I saw the character was now voiced by Ashly Burch, who I think is great. I was even happier with the introduction of Kanami Mashita. When I’d heard that there was a new character, I worried about how they would fit into such a fun cast with established chemistry, but Kanami totally fits right in. She’s cute, funny, and I like that she represents a totally different kind of idol than Rise. It’s too bad she wasn’t in Persona 4: Golden or I might have had a harder time deciding who to romance.

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So, overall, I loved Dancing All Night. The remixed P4 songs were great and I liked the stylish slight redesigns of the characters. Did the story drag on a little too long? Sure. But what I actually appreciated about that was that it just offered more opportunities to see the characters interact and talk, and that’s really what these games seem to be about: getting more time with your favorite characters. So this didn’t feel like a shoddy side-story, it really did feel to me like an expansion of the P4 universe that I already loved so much.

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I did wish there was more Margaret, though.

And if I loved the Persona 4 universe, I was head over heels for the world of Persona 5. The gameplay is virtually identical in Dancing All Night and Dancing in Starlight, so the thing that stood out the most to me was the graphics. P5 was a gorgeous, stylish game, but you can kind of tell it was originally developed for the PS3 when you look at the character models and environments. They’re well designed, but they’re also fairly low in detail and sharpness. It didn’t bother me at all when I played it, but as soon as Dancing in Starlight loaded up and I saw the new, crisp, beautiful versions of the P5 crew, I was (unreasonably) overjoyed.

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Not only did the characters themselves get a graphical facelift, many of the environments they dance in are 3D, high def versions of locations from the original game. They also added detailed, explorable bedrooms for each of the characters. This is all very exciting not just because it’s a prettier version of art I already liked looking at, but because of the possible implications that it has for a re-release, like Atlus did with Persona 4: Golden. In fact, not long after this game was released they announced P5R and said nothing other than the fact that we would have to wait until March to learn more. I keep seeing the weirdest rumors about what this project will be (Persona 5 Racing? Really?), but I think it’s going to be Persona 5: Ruby. Yellow was the primary thematic color of Persona 4, so when they revamped it for re-release the new subtitle was the more valuable, flashy name for its primary color. With red being P5’s primary thematic color, ruby would be the parallel if they were going for a consistent naming convention, which we see that they like because of the similar subtitles for all of the dancing games.

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Regardless of the subtitle, my whole point was that these new character models and environments (and the ability to interact with rooms and characters in both first-person and virtual reality) make me wonder if they are recreating all of the assets for a P5 re-release in tandem, and we can look forward to an even more breathtakingly beautiful version of the game, one where we can actually explore the streets, buildings, and environments from a variety of perspectives – and maybe in VR! That is too exciting to consider.

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As with Dancing All Night, I like that you can collect a bunch of costumes for the characters, and I really liked some of the remixes of these songs. I did think the playlist was a little short, but they offer several free downloadable songs, and I went ahead and bought a live version of “Whims of Fate” (favorite track from the P5 soundtrack) and a song from P4.

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While the writing in Dancing All Night seemed a little weaker than that of its original game, I thought the writing and dialogue in Dancing in Starlight was actually a little sharper and more natural than some of P5’s. I loved that the twins played such a big role, and almost every one of  their scenes was hilarious. But in general, as with Dancing All Night, I was just so happy to have an opportunity to revisit the world and characters that I love so much from Persona 5. I’m waiting to play Persona 3: Dancing in Moonlight until I finally get around to actually playing Persona 3, but all of this Persona activity, along with the remake of Atlus’s Catherine gives me such high hopes that we’ll see a new version of P5 for PlayStation 4 and Switch a lot sooner than I might have once expected.

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Making Memories with Persona 4 Golden

As I wrote previously, I absolutely loved Persona 5. I’d been interested in the series for a long time, so I was happy to be rewarded by such an excellent entry into the franchise. It was the kind of game that I just didn’t want to be done with, so I ended up beating it almost three full times in order to get the platinum trophy for it. Beyond that, I ended up buying both Persona 3 and Persona 4 for the PS2, since they were pretty cheap online, and later I bought a PlayStation Vita and Persona 4 Golden because I’d heard that it was also quite excellent. I finally got around to playing the latter recently, so I wanted to put some of my thoughts about it down in writing.

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I have to say, I was a bit nervous before actually sitting down to play it. Persona 5 has a lot of systems, which is probably part of the reason they take their time in teaching you those systems in the early hours of the game. Atlus does a great job with it, and before I knew it I felt like a master at the weakness/affinity-based combat system, but I worried that P4G might not be quite so refined in its tutorials, being eight years older than its sequel (the original P4, anyway). I needn’t have worried, as P4G was very much like P5 in almost every aspect, tutorials and combat included.

When I say they are similar, I really mean it. One of the games is about a young high school kid who stays with his stern (but later loving) male guardian who has a young daughter whose mother was hit and killed by a car, and you learn that you have the ability to travel to an alternate dimension and use shadows, and with the help of a colorful cast of classmates and townsfolk, you save people from that shadow dimension and kill a god. The other game is about [copy and paste that whole thing here].

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The two being so similar isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Though interesting, the premise of the game is not at the top of the list of things I loved about either game. There are some small changes in mechanics that make P5 an arguably better game, but the combat is virtually the same in each, and I loved fighting in both of them. I usually hate games that force you to change up your skills and attacks in order to exploit enemy weaknesses (sometimes I just wanna mindlessly bash away at things, okay?), but somehow these two games turned that concept into a well-coordinated dance. I very much enjoyed sizing up each group of enemies, thinking about what abilities each of my party members had, and then figuring out who to attack with, who to buff with, etc. In most RPGs, when I win a battle I feel strong. In these games, I felt smart.

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More important than the combat, I think, is the cast of characters and the relationships you form with them. So much of these games centers on finding people, learning about them, and establishing a deeper bond with them. The dating in P4 is a little less engaging than it is in P5, but I still liked having it as an option. In my first playthrough I dated Yukiko. She is smart, introspective, industrious, and has that kind of elegant traditional Japanese thing going on. I can’t say I wasn’t tempted to abandon my quest to win her heart when Rise came into my life, though. She is fun, flirty, ambitious, and very cute. I was in too deep with Yukiko, though, so I saved Rise for my second game. I was very close to picking Marie, too, though, and she would have definitely been my next lady if I were to play it a third time. None of them held a candle to Ann from P5, but I did like those three ladies a lot.

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You know who else I liked? Kanji. If there’s an area that P4 beats out P5 in, it might be humor. P4 is a very funny game, and I found myself laughing out loud several times, which is pretty uncommon for me. My typical reaction to humor in games is a chuckle or maybe a conservative “heh” or a “ha” or two strung together. Not so with P4. I found myself having to stop and just laugh at certain scenes, even on my second playthrough. Kanji was the source of much of that laughter. He and Naoto are also super interesting for how they’re used to look at issues of gender and sexuality in games. I wish Atlus had gone further with them, though, because it seems like they wanted to make Kanji gay and Naoto gender non-conforming but pulled back at the last second and had them be semi-closeted or confused rather than forsake their feelings. The point of the shadows in this game is that they represent a part of you that you repress, and in defeating them you admit that they are just as much a part of you as the “real” version. So, given that Kanji’s shadow is gay, that means that he is either gay or bi in the real world, but after defeating his shadow he continues to act like he’s totally, definitely “not like that,” which seems weird. And Naoto eventually reveals that she presents as male because of societal expectations, but even after being outed as a woman she asks that they continue to treat her as a male and still presents as male (until the epilogue, anyway). So I think they could have done a little more to make those two characters definitively different, but they were still interesting and unique characters that are not commonly found in games.

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The art style and soundtrack are also very good, as they are in P5. I like the red/black/white theme of P5 more than the yellow/green theme in P4, but they share a lot of the same visual flare and attention to the most minute of details. This ended up being a lot more clinical than I’d intended, but sometimes it’s hard to convey why the magical cocktail of ingredients in any given game is so delicious and intoxicating. Persona 4 made me happy. At the end of P4 and P5 your new friends speak to you about leaving and there’s a kind of bittersweet thing going on, because you all revel in the good times you had but lament the fact that it’s all over and you have to leave them behind. It seems like a purposeful design choice, because as a player I was going through the same thing. I was sad to finish both of these games, even though I’d spent dozens and dozens of hours with them. I wished I could have stayed, just as my character did, but I had to move on. I console myself by reminding myself that there are three more mainline Persona games I have yet to play, so maybe I’ll do one each summer for the next few years, and by the time I’m done with them there will be a fresh, new Persona game to steal my heart.

 

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